Indigo Child vs. Lightworker

I now call myself Lightworker and not Indigo Child and this is why. A few years ago I was listening to a lot of info on the Internet to do with New Age ideas. I was hungry at the time for an explanation why I had all these beautiful experiences of pure bliss, ecstasy and complete peace and thoughts of loving everyone and everything, while my friends, family and it seemed most everyone else didn’t. The knowledge of how to attain these things seemed to flow to me easily as well.

One day I was listening to Doreen Virtue on Hay House Radio and she told one of her callers Bev (not her real name) that she was an Indigo Child meaning that she was here on earth to transform negative energy into positive energy. This was why Bev was depressed as she was absorbing the negativity around her. Doreen gave the advice of draining the negativity into the earth using visualization. The earth has the ability to transform negative into positive energy. As soon as I heard this I was hooked because I can identify with all of that.

So I took her advice and started draining the negativity I was holding. I’ve never felt so free! Next I needed to find out as much as I could about Indigo Children. I could identify with most of it and voila I became an Indigo. There was only one problem, the websites said we get very angry and fight when we hear lies, or injustice of any kind. This is true of me, and learning why I do this I now felt justified in my outbursts with others causing my anger to escalate. So now I felt terrible self-generated negativity not to mention becoming ostracized from my peers by all my judgement and lectures, after all I was put on this earth to teach others right from wrong. Then there’s the separation, even superiority that comes from being an ascented master who chose to come back to raise others up to my level.

Then I got into a debate online about weather or not Indigos exist. While I don’t have much regard for the women I was debating I met someone there who helped me see some things clearer. Although I still don’t fully agree with them.

Now almost a year later these are my revised opinions of Indigo Children. Thinking I was one helped me to understand the evolution process as I do today. As well I learned the purpose for anger, which has been a lifelong issue for me, and the importance of keeping it in check. Believing there was a small number of special “masters” that I was one of for a short time actually showed me we are all on the same path to enlightenment and that I still have as much work to do as anyone else. The only difference between me, and the ones still in the old paradigm is my conscious awareness of our/my ascention. I see unaware people learning the same lessons as I am leading their souls toward the same place as me weather they are aware of it or not. When they are ready they too will wake up, this life or the next but soon. Awareness I can try to teach but not how to ascent.

I believe in Indigos and still identify myself as one when I hear them spoken of. Just as I use the word God with Christians when I speak of the Universe. We trip up on words far too often and in all the hurt feelings the meanings we are trying to get across go unexpressed. So I attempt to be politically correct whenever possible for the sake of communication.

The mistakes that were made in defining Indigos were an important part of my ascention and I wouldn’t dream consciously taking that away from anyone else’s journey.

I now call myself a Lightworker because it seems to fit me best at this time. Next year who knows? Hee Hee